I find it rather amusing that as I begin to go into motion again, the blog is shifting and it is returning to its center, where it was just about 3 years ago. The center is where I do more posting of a shorter variety and less of the long, feature article length posts. It is a reflection of the return of motion to my life. Shorter posts, more often and the longer feature-length pieces are off finding their well-paid homes. It is good to see that shift happening again.
I got an emergency project from a client to fix what another writer had created. 100 articles (it was a content job) that can only be described as …perky. My job is to fix perky and return it to professional. Not that you cannot be cheerful and professional, but I swear, I think this writer is descended from the Care bears.
I also had my first experience with understanding a Zen Koan. I have been asked one before but I already understood it, but this one I have been obsessed with. It’s the one I keep posting about “If there are no words and there is no silence, how do you know what truth is?” And the master’s reply, “I remember sitting in a meadow and two butterflies were flying over the field.”
A – I just love the language of it. But, I knew that I totally was not “getting it.” I had an understanding of it based in memory and presence but had this feeling that totally was not it. So, I did what I was told to do. Meditate on it; contemplate it in all my actions. Meditate and focus on my breathing and forget about it. Then think about it some more while walking.
This morning, I sat down to become the mad kitten’s Ferris wheel (also known as assuming the lotus position) and before I even started, understanding flew into my head and I ‘got it.” It is not at all what I was thinking before and then, I found the discipline to forget it and meditate. To let it go and come back to the understanding when I was done with zazen. Zazen in the morning, Zazen in the night. I am up to 25 minutes. Now, I have been told that I must find where my limit is and choose to go farther.
And here I sit, still racing to catch up with work and looking towards a gloriously busy day of work, GO and 4 meetings with people I have not seen in ages.
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