Things I Learned in Heaven


Stress is a funny thing. It can come from all sorts of places. Good and bad stress (eustress and distress) can have the same effect on the body. Learning to control stress is an art form. It can be done, but there will always be times and situations that will introduce you to a new level of stress (good o bad) that you have to learn how to handle.


Stress is a part of balance. It really isn’t good or bad. It is just a part of life.


Recently, I went through an intensely stressful situation that was both good and bad. As a result, my immune system went crazy and I contracted a fairly serious infection. As part of working to get rid of this, I spent a couple of nights in the hospital receiving simultaneous and repeated doses of Morphine, Ativan, Ciprol and Zofron. Needless to say… I was out of my mind.


An unusual thing happens to you when you receive that combination, when your eyes are closed you are in a completely fantastical world that seems absolutely real; when your eyes are open – you realize just how f**ked you are and dysfunctional.


It would be easy to write off what happens when your eyes are closed, but that would be a mistake. You can’t believe anything you see then as real, but what you see in that state can be a revelation.


Here is what I learned while I was in Heaven:

 – all things that happen are a beginning

 – no two people are the same, yet we all are

 – we see and hear that which confirms what we really believe

 – there is a reason why all the Gods in time have thought we needed guidance


I am on my last course of antibiotic (hopefully)and slowly returning to the world. But somehow, I believe it is with different and sharper vision.


c.2012 Cassandra Tribe. All Rights Reserved.


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"There are few artists that can do what Cassandra Tribe does. Whether with her poetry, her videos or her blog, Cassandra examines the truths that most of us can never come close to realizing and shows it for what it is, both beautiful and frightening at the same time. She exposes our inner-most workings like the cross-section of a powerful but flawed machine, our gears and springs, nuts and bolts removed and laid out before us. She is a true artist. Her new video, Requiem for a God, is the latest example of Cassandra's willingness to tear open and examine the very things that make us human. Shooting the film entirely by herself, she also eliminates all the little excuses we come up with to keep us from ourselves and our truth. You see, even when she's not trying to be, Cassandra Tribe is a beacon of truth and humanity in this darkest of worlds." (Michael E. Quigg, The Culture Network, June 2009)
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